Wrestling a team mate sucks. It really does and there is no way you can deny it because after one of you wins there is always the knowledge sitting in the back of your head that one of you is better.
The knowledge of knowing that the other on is better than you on the mat can drive you mad and lead you to a hatred for said team mate, and although that may not be the case for everyone that has happened to me.
In my past years I’ve had to consistently wrestle one of my team mates and I have definitely lost but I’ve also have won a couple of times. Typically when you lose to one person a lot it feels a lot better to win but if they’re on your team winning against them or losing against them does not effect you as much compared to winning or losing against a random opponent. I think this effect happens because you see your team mate almost everyday. You know how they train, and you train with them so when you step on the mat it’s almost like you’re back at practice.
When I step on the mat and I’m to be wrestling my team mate it’s helps me if I pretend that they’re not my team mate, to pretend that I have no idea who that person is, because than you’re not afraid to hold back and you are more likely to wrestle your hardest. What I’m trying to say is that you have to separate your emotions from your choices on the mat.
The ability to separate your emotions from decisions made on the mat is not a skill that you can develop over night and it take a lot of time to develop and even me, a wrestler that been wrestling for eight years, finds it hard sometimes.